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FOLLOW YOUR HEART

LEARNING AND EVOLVING

CALLING OF YOUR SOUL

Let it whisper  ,   Let it Sing

Let it be free from within 

Let it soar up in the sky so high 

Feel free to be what’s it meant to be

                                Sonia Kumar

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All THEY NEEDED WAS LOVE

I finally let my guards down
Wasn’t I a mute spectator
Watching each one from the sidelines
Observing how they flowed
And there ups and downs
Each fighting for their way forward
Trying to prove that they belonged
They could go to great lengths
to prove what was theirs
But all of them like Empty cans
Rattling and making too much sound
Sometimes it hurt my ears
Sometimes it saddened me
To see them broken
Vying for attention
And still not being heard
My heart cried for those broken
And deep scars that they hid
Behind those fake smiles
And telling themselves each day
They were great
What they did not understand
That they needed some warmth
And some love to fill
The emptiness and the void
That they felt deep inside.

Sonia Kumar

Reality – An Illusion The Fakeness of it all

The fakeness of it all
The gestures
The moments
The looks
The words
Each one practiced
Each one deliberated
Each one manipulated
For a simple heart
Which believed in it all
And tried to reciprocate
Despite knowing something
Was off and very wrong

Treated just like an object
No feelings, No heart
Looked down upon
And told I was wrong
Objected to, Humiliated
Openly discussed
And targeted like a prey
And was caught in the
Manipulation and the lies
Like a fly in the web
and made to realize
The fakeness of it all

Looking back to the times
And the innocence
With which I believed
Or wanted to believe
The warmth of those words
Which were only a sham
Just to boost their ego
And create a reality
Of how great they were
With not a blink in the eye
And how it hurt deeply
And created a mirage
And me, made to feel bad
For taking it wrong

Each day wanting to believe
In the goodness
In their words
Which was just a farce
The reality finally hit me
At the Falseness
And the Fakeness of it all
Time passed,
The illusions disappeared
The reality glaring
straight in the eye
I finally took a step forward
But they were still stuck
In that mirage
And the Fakeness
And the Illusion
Which had been their reality
For so long

Sonia Kumar

My Frozen Heart – Trapped 

I had walked the path alone

My heart was frozen 

I felt dead inside

Nothing Swept me 

Nothing held me

I just gazed at the horizon 

With no end in site

Life passed by

I stood alone 

People came

People left

But I felt their was no one 

Who stood by my side

They judged me 

They reproached me

They accused me

With their stares

And their glares

But I felt nothing

My heart was frozen 

Nothing could touch it

As it had been dead

for a long time. 

A bolt of lightning 

A Ball of fire

Struck my frozen heart

And something moved

I felt it bleeding

The daggers still stuck

The arrows still piercing

The pain insurmountable 

And tears flowing

For no end in site

It brought back all the memories

Which had frozen with time 

The reproach, The hate, 

The disapproval

Each moment which had frozen

As my heart had stopped beating 

I felt the pain deeply embedded 

In my heart and my soul

I felt I had moved on

But my heart had held the pain

Beyond Eons and lifetimes

Sonia Kumar

My Heart… Did it Die

Recently been disturbed by every thing that’s been going on and my heart has been hurting and aching and I keep asking these questions –


Did you listen to the heart cry
Did you see it die
Each time it was hurt
Each time it died a little
Every time it wanted to just be held
Be caressed, Feel the love
But instead got
The judgements
The hate
The questions
The set criterias,

It just wanted
To live
To love
To be held
To be caressed
To be accepted
And To be free
It was all that it needed
I always wonder
Is that so difficult…
Take care all of you. Love and Hugs

Heartbroken

Every time someone hurts me 

I look the other way

I don’t crib I don’t demean

I don’t shout 

I try not to pity myself 

I am deeply hurt 

I just try to see the lesson 

And learn

If I open my heart

You will see the scars

Of wounds which have been deep imbedded inside

Buried with time 

But not forgotten 

Might have lost their sheen

And been pushed aside

But every time I open my heart

They bleed 

Leaving me vulnerable and heartbroken

Sonia Kumar

Let’s Shine

It’s the time to flow
To open your hearts
And let the inner child grow
There were times… a lot many
When you stopped it
from stepping out
Afraid of the world
And what it would harp
Also burdened by the workload
It’s been peeping out
Since the lock down
So acknowledge it
Honor it… And let it grow
Open your hearts
Let life,laughter and love
…….. Shine through.

My daughters Ira Kumar Ruhin Kumar inspired me to write this.. We all have been in lock down for quite some time, and we have a lot of time at hand. So it’s our time to open up our hearts and honor who we are. Each of us is unique and gifted and has something unique in us that needs to come out, so now you have time to listen to that voice which you have suppressed and put it at the back, it’s knocking and wants to come out… So honor it.. Because when we acknowledge who we are, we will let life flow through us… First it will be a small trickle, but the more you honor it the more it will grow. When we do something that comes naturally to us it just opens our hearts, it’s not labor, but love and we will become happier as a community and as nations. So guys just honor who you are…. Love and Hugs
Check out the videos of both my daughters.. Just loved and amazed at what they can do without any formal training. If they can do it you can too. Please give them some love to encourage them Thanks Love you all ❤️

Sonia Kumar

Breathe

The dark night is over,
I am ready to welcome the new dawn.
My arms are wide open
To breathe in to the sweetness
Of what holds beyond
Ready to take the next steps
Which will be slow and calm

Love and Hugs ❤️

Message from the Universe

Hello Dear Friends, Soul mates
A message from the universe- In a few weeks time we will be ready to step outside trying to return to our normal lives. But our new normal will be a different normal from the one we have experienced before because we have changed from our inside, our priorities have changed during this self isolation time.

I am ready to step outside
The bonds broken
The shackles which had interwoven
Had led me astray
Each one I have shed
To be born anew
I am thankful for the safety
Of my home
I felt safe and secure
Guarded and shielded
From the dangers outside
I have rested and resolved
And listened to my heart
And slayed my fears
Which had kept me locked
And not ready for the resolve
To step outside
My heart is beating
With a strength and eagerness
To the positive changes
I can make outside
I am ready to live my life
with a tenderness and compassion
For myself and the world outside.

May you be blessed and guided in this new life as you move forward.
Please do forward and share although I believe if it’s meant to be, you will recieve it. Take care ❤️ ❤️
Sharing some recent pictures with you. May you all be blessed 🙏

Hope

A few messages received during the lock down period

A humble appeal to everyone.. A message I have received and I am sharing with all of you The next 10 days please make an effort to do this… It will be a great gesture and help to heal yourself, Mother Earth and mankind.

Stop talking, Can you keep quiet
For once listen to your own voice
Which is sad and dying deep inside
Stop trying to be someone
Stop trying to score points
Nature has asked us to be quiet
And listen to our own voice
Which is wailing and crying
To be let outside
Stop trying to be good
Stop trying to be bad
Just silence your mind
Let your heart speak up
It’s time to still yourself
And forget what is outside
As there is deeper trouble
Brewing inside
Which needs to be addressed
And taken care of
For the outside to recover
And to heal inside
Wake up to yourself
And who you are
It’s time to pay attention
Stop screaming stop shouting
And trying to prove yourself
And who you are
Just try to listen to that
heart beating Deep Inside
Can you listen to the wails
Can you listen to the screams
Quieten it, Heal it
Every thing will clear up outside
It’s the need of the hour
The doctors, the helpers
The government each one is doing their duty
So help them by quieting yourself
And meditating

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The Black Night 🖤

The sadness sitting heavy
The day’s event flashed by
The realization that was always
Right in front
The years of struggle
Not knowing, not conscious
Of the herculean task
That was always at hand
To live a normal life
The struggles my body went through
To keep the pace
To meet the demands
Of the world outside
The running, The tiredness
The long hours
All seeping in
Creeping slowly
The tears flowing
Not knowing why
The heart heavy
All the silent crying
And felt was that all
That was life
The constant struggle to fit in
To be a part
Will it ever end
The sky dark
The night pitch black
I failed to see the other end
Eyes tired waiting for the dawn
Which would be a sight to behold
For my sore eyes
But will it come
Was my thought
In the deep recesses
Of my mind
As I nodded off
Exhausted to my core

Sonia Kumar

Don’t take away their Childhood – Let them ” Be”

Let’s not expose them
Till they are tiny and young
Let’s give them time to grow up
Find their way and mature
Their small shoulders are not meant to carry
The burden of prying eyes
Let them love their life
With a naturalness and joy

Their hearts are tender
And still yet to understand the world outside
Let’s give them the space
To make mistakes, learn and grow
The expectations we pile up on them
With all the media and exposure
These tiny little munchkins
Might learn the art to pose
And and be what is expected of them
But they might forget
The naughty pranks and the laughter
The sharing and the caring
In trying to model and pose
The happiness that is natural to a child
Might be forgotten
In the midst of becoming someone
Whom they don’t know

Their little dreams their little fantasies
Their innocence,
All a part of their fantasy world
Don’t break that bubble of happiness
With your constant demands
Don’t take away that childhood
Let them be in that cocoon
And feel safe for a little while
There will always be a time
When they will leave the nest
That will be the time when
they will become big and strong
Ready To break the shell
And come out on their own
They will always carry their childhood
With them for all their life
So give them a memory to cherish
And to carry them through the tests of time

Sonia Kumar

A Miracle waiting to Happen

You are the miracle, waiting  to happen

Don’t wait for it to come 

The gift is not outside

It is deep within you 

You are  the deep sea  

Have you forgotten to dive in 

Each day diving deep and deeper

And bring to light the hidden  treasures 

What you see is just a scratch

Of the immense gifts 

Waiting to be  explored 

And exposed

Look deep within 

The strength 

The hope 

The inspiration

The fortitude

The fearlessness 

The spunk

The tenacity

Each lies within you 

Waiting to be given wind to 

Waiting to make you fly 

Like the eagle

Beyond the horizon 

Beyond your wildest dreams 

Fly High into the Sun

Each day living beyond your imagination

The world is your oasis

You have the choices and a million doors

Each one to be opened and explored

Play the different tunes

Each one touching a different chord

Ride the waves of wonder and awe

Like a child with so much to experience 

Each day with all the zeal and hope 

You are the master of your destiny

It’s you that matters the most 

Just open your eyes to the wonders inside

And the miracles will flow 

Sonia Kumar

 

Love Yourself, Each day a little more

Hello Everyone! So much has changed since i started my journey as a writer and spiritual practitioner around 3 yrs back i still remember the first poem which flew out of my soul http://LISTEN TO YOUR SOUL. At that time I was an unsure person still trying to find her feet and today I send all of you who are standing in my position, where I was standing 3 yrs back, not having a voice of your own struggling with yourself each day to open up and speak your truth and be your authentic and true self.

So this poem is an endearment to all of you out there. Sending you so much love.

Oh my darling

Don’t hold your breath

Just breathe

Breathe in the love

And live a little more

Take your space

Claim what’s rightfully yours

Don’t be scared

Don’t be intimidated

You are who you are

Each day Respect yourself

Love yourself all the more

Even an ant has its place

Despite being tiny and small

Then why can’t you claim

What’s rightfully yours

Oh darling

Breathe in the love

And open your heart a little more

The world is waiting

For your sweet songs

So let go of the breath

And the pain

And let your heart sing

And dream a little more

Oh my Darling

Don’t choke

Feel free to breathe

The love will spread

And radiate from each pore

So breathe in the love

And love yourself more

Oh Darling

The fears are unreal

Don’t let them hold you

Don’t let them bind you

Release them with each breath

Break free

Spread your wings

You have a new journey

Waiting for you

And very far to go

Sonia Kumar

Speak – It’s your right

Today so full of emotions

Some past, Some new

A lifetime of struggle

To hold myself back

And let others drive

To do the talking

And hold their head in pride

And me sitting back

Knowing everything

And not feeling up to

the task of pulling them down

Letting them get away

Even if it was not right

Not wanting to hurt them

Led me to hurt myself more

Leading me to a path of silence

And harming myself more

I don’t blame them for what they did

But i learnt something valuable

If you do not speak

You are taken for granted

And pushed and pulled

You are the target

And the dumping ground

For every wrong they do

So stand up and speak

If you feel something

Strongly and deep in your heart

Own up to each feeling

Each emotion

As that is your right

And never give up the fight

Sonia Kumar

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